Today is April Fools' Day. A day to commemorate a fox, apparently, fooling someone into believing that the day is March 32nd rather than April 1st. A very odd story from Geoffrey Chaucer's Canterbury Tales.
Jordan Peterson said there's something to the fool. He explained that being young and dumb is not necessarily a bad thing. A fool, according to Scripture is someone who actively rejects wisdom, while through literature and what Peterson referred to this person is merely uneducated, or unprepared for a task at hand; someone who is new at their trade, or at any activity.
I couldn't help but think about myself in the position of pastor. I know that I'm not ready to be a pastor yet. However, it could be argued that no one is ever "ready" for anything. I wasn't ready to finish school and get married. I wasn't ready to become a father. I wasn't ready to pursue ministry. I wasn't ready for the questions asked of me during interviews.
I am not ready for the financial responsibility of owning a home, pastoring people older than me, my age, and younger than me, and submitting to a church leadership I have never known. I am not ready.
But I am willing. I will submit to the leadership that I don't know. I will pastor younger, peers, and elders, and take on the responsibilities therein. I will learn from my interviews, and prepare more appropriately. I will pursue ministry and make it my bread and butter. I know the blessing that getting fired from that awful job was. Getting to work at this airport has made me able to prepare for ministry by reading books, getting counseled and certified, and being challenged to grow in many ways by many people and events. I will commit to fathering my child, Liam, and the rest of my children that I have in the future. I will commit to being a faithful husband to my wonderful wife, the good mother of my child(ren).
I will commit to being a pastor.
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Time to read.